Perception

Perception seems to be the topic of the day and indeed of this current moon cycle. We have been talking about our own perception. This is an involved and complex maze of different aspects for such an innocent little word so let me see if we can unfold part of it.

At the very tip of perception is interpretation and conception or misconception, or perception with a distorted base upon which one concludes what another is meaning. Communication especially verbal interactive communication is fraught with hazards, yet even the written word lacks in the conveyance of a story. Ever read a book then watched the film. We may hear accurately then bundle it up to fit with our current model of how things are perceived and toss whatever does not
fit.

Moving now to a more abstract view of perception and we step into how so called Facts are accepted by the majority until someone or something challenges that fact, which puts a fact into category of ‘a commonly accepted belief’. For instance does the sun revolve around the earth or does the earth revolve around the sun? Galileo challenged that belief, but I personally have no evidence to form an accurate opinion either way, the only thing I know for sure is that the sun rises in the west and sets in the east, but so does the moon. So what you may ask, and indeed you may for we accept many things as given, a given reality of the way things are and therefore accept the information that is passed to us without question. Oh you say but I do question it, I say, do you, do I? We are surrounded with many schools of thought all proclaiming to be the truth, yet within each are contradictions of the others. Religion, Philosophy, Science, Art, Education, Construction, Architecture (ouch), the list goes on. We see or hear things and accept that which support our own perception. Thus we form an opinion of ‘what is’ based on the information we have that supports our opinion, but do we ever re-evaluate the perception.

Now I’m going to put this on a personal footing, for this I think is where the real value is. Perception of myself, who I am and how others perceive me, note here the mismatch, my perception of how others perceive me. Think about that for a moment and consider how much of your own perception is based on the perceived perception of others. How much of it is accepted belief and how much is a distortion of reality? I have just figured out that my entire life to date has been walked with a distorted reality identified and conditioned within the first seven years, supported by the next seven, and by the age of twenty one it was so ingrained in my belief system that I had accepted this reality as fact and thus it could not be changed. ‘Just do the best you can with the tools/lot/cards you have’. The original seed was fact or reality, but the perception and resulting compensatory reaction to it by others coloured their perception and behaviour and thus my perception of reality.

This is a complete distortion of reality, served up by well meaning and loving family members including extended family and friends. We can see this with actors being type cased into a specific roll, public perception of a persona locks an actor into one and only one roll and is very difficult to shake it off. In the process of growing up we are type cased and in my case accepted that roll as reality. So we grow up learning about the world and how we fit into it, learning how to perceive things, being guided by family and friends, who may also be operating with distorted perception.
As we walk through life we are occasionally presented with a ‘life challenge’, well I am, anyway, it is important that we walk through those challenges, be they personal, relationship or professional. If we have a perception of ourselves that prevents or inhibits us from walking through these challenges then the perception itself is the challenge. Whether we succeed or fail in the challenge is actually irrelevant, the success is in having walked through it, the outcome is secondary.

The main point to all this and I do think there is one, is that any perception that limits or stops us from walking through a challenge needs to be discarded. Easier said than done, yes, but so is walking through a life challenge, but walk it we must, it may be that dropping a limiting belief of ourselves is the lesson or just a bonus. Question, then your own perception, especially the ones that limit you or distract you from walking your path, question every perception, is it reality or not, does it exist without my belief in it, can it be contradicted, countered, challenge.

There may be more to this that first meets the conscious brain, after all consider the power of phobias. We all accept these as cases of a distorted belief, yet near impossible for the person afflicted by such a belief to just consciously decide otherwise. These are unconscious or subliminal beliefs operating here and not something I’m qualified to comment on, only as far as this is an extreme example of a limiting perception or belief, one that limits the full expression of the self. Some of these limitations or perceptions may be hidden, subliminal, the point being examine even the resistance to something, it may be a false or distorted perception that limits us.

All of these distorted perceptions or false beliefs may in fact be fear based on something that the instinctual animal man needs for survival. Ask yourself ‘Is it fear that stops me?’, and if the answer is yes then walk through it, my friend, because the very belief that stops us, may be transformed into a strength. Easier said than done I know, but facing the fear, challenging the belief has got to be easier that being paralysed by it.

life and the energetic field

Nearby is a small sports park, a sports complex with a field that many people use. It is lined with beautiful mature trees.  What you can see in the first photo is only one corner. Standing in the foreground are two oaks. Beautiful aren’t they.

 
There were three! Actually pretty much every tree you can see in both photos are marked for termination, 33 mature trees in total, why? A bigger field! I cannot express how outraged we were when we found one of our favourite green spaces had been raped like this. Yes that is a strong word but it is a mild expression of how I feel about this. In total we found some 14 trees had already been terminated. If you are a movie buff then by all means think about the Terminator, it is quite relevant in this case, mindless mechanical termination. With all due respect there is no blame or accountability to the people that actually cut them down, they are just doing their job. The reason for my rant is twofold; firstly to express my outrage, the second is to understand the impact.

Life is a field of energy that holds us all, each of us play our part in this energetic field. Anyone who has lost a family member will understand the impact, the birth of new life changes that filed; even the resignation of a work colleague changes the field.

Now back to the park and the grass, trees and the people that use it. This park like any natural area has a field of energy that most of us are either unaware of or simply take for granted. Life in any environment has an energetic field, whether it is a forest, and park, a simple house garden or your own family. It creates a field for the whole and for each life within, and when considering each life it does so as part of the whole, for each life is both part of the whole and a whole life within itself.

Each life has to be whole and complete to contribute to the whole forest. It must however first and foremost maintain its own balance and integrity. Often one life is stronger than another and in this case it can either dominate or support depending on the life and environment. In a healthy cooperative environment, one life may extend its own field out to aid or compensate for another but without compromising the integrity of the other or the whole. All life must balance itself to flourish. When one part of a forest is cut down, all within and therefore the whole is affected and must adjust to the new conditions. Re-establish the harmonic balance of life. This is part of the natural cycle of life, the old pass over and the young mature to take their place to make their contribution to the life as a whole and thereby benefit by the health and wellbeing of the whole. In the natural life cycle, death is the decision of each life and in conjunction with the whole, the lives in and around make adjustments naturally to compensate, allowing the old to pass. But the sudden, deliberate and mechanical termination of individuals from this place must throw the whole life into stress and confusion, much like natural disasters do for us, why would it not be the same.

The lives of the animal kingdom it is the same; they live naturally in harmony and play their part in life’s harmonic play. Life is perpetuated by cooperative activity in the animal kingdom with that of the plant kingdom. We have seen what happens to the natural balance when man intervenes and one thing is introduced or removed, it throws the natural balance of life out and often a ripple effect is setup.

Humanity however seems to have forgotten this aspect of life and now imposes his will on his own environment, with great speed giving no time or consideration to the life around him, with him, of that life that he is also a part of and is dependent on for his own wellbeing. Is this to be our legacy?

When will humanity realise this and awaken from this insanity, and realise that he must live in harmony with his environment, the very environment that supports him. It may sound idealistic but if man is the son of God or some divinity, he must also realise that animals, plants and the very earth he stands on, lives in a harmonic field of energy. We as a human race were put here for a reason; surly this was not to enlighten the human race at the cost of all other life. It must be to enlighten all life, to live in life, to bring light to all life.

Fortunately for the trees in the green space, the community spoke with resounding outrage and have stopped the termination of more trees.

Sward of desire

In this mechanized world of obligation and duty lies an insidious condition, mediocrity and the mundane, it is relentless and insipid. We just go through the motions of daily life and let it consume us with its endless capacity for the mundane details with the illusion that we are living a full and rich life, successful in our chosen career. Yes, we have it all don’t we, the car, the house, the career, wealth and reputation. But what if this is all a smoke screen, an illusion, what then, I ask myself: What if I am just a fool on a journey? Oblivious to the real potential in this life to actually make a difference to my journey and with luck leave a smile on a few faces.

We are put on this earth to experience life, to love life, to sound our own note, not opera in the shower but the free expression of our soul, our desire, to fulfil the reason we came here for, our purpose in life. This is the sward of desire or destiny, the sharp instrument that cuts through the mundane and mediocre. Yet so often we are consumed by the mundane machine that we live in and allow the sward to get dull.

This is a difficult topic to nail down, because it is so insidious. Thirteen years ago I finally found a job that allowed me to follow my passion, the very thing that made my heart sing, each to his own, mine was computer programming, and I loved it. I could spring from bed in the morning and could not wait to get to work, put in more hours that was required and leave inspired, fulfilled, they even paid me for it. There was space to be creative and my heart was engaged with it. However over the past couple of years, bureaucracy has taken over and all that remains is a stifling environment that extinguishes creativity. My heart is no longer in it.  Why, don’t I just leave, you ask. Well that is the subject of this blog, for the same reason that lots of my decisions are based on, fear. Fear of loss, exposure, embarrassment, failure, future consequences, death, and poverty to name a few. Obligations, this one is covert indeed, family, mortgage/rent, insurance and maintaining all the things I own that define who I am.  So with all the risk taken out of life, there is no room left for anything but the mundane and mediocre. Why not clime that mountain, or parachute from a plain for the same reason we buy insurance.

Liberty is mine, shall I say before I pass over to Elysium, that my soul and my right to express its desire is my god given right, my obligation. However, the question remains: how does one keep the sward of desire (soul expression) sharp when it is constantly being dulled by mundane details of mediocrity. Does one keep the sward just for private use? Do we stand and wield it with the passion that it deserves whenever it is confronted by the dullness of the mundane. We must still eat, sleep, work and play.

Desire must override fear. Duty and obligation to others, our duty is to allow the soul’s desire to be expressed and to be heard, to sound ones note, to write, to sing, to build, or to paint. Whatever sings to the heart. Living is an expression of love, it is that simple. We are put here to live, to love, and to sound our note. Mediocrity may be of our own making, consider that. In this western mechanized life style we have created, the average person is bound to the machine of living. Few find their own song. History is littered with expressions, in all fields of endeavour we find great persons that sounded their note, in Arts, Construction, Destruction, Invention, and Discovery. Our song may not make the history books but what is important is that it is sung, the note sounded, it is what makes our own heart lift and we know it is right to do so. Consider the quality of your own life, if the person you most admire, living or not, had surrendered to mediocrity and just went to work and paid the bills.

So, my friends, may our sward be sharp and our song heard. Let not the mundane stay us, let not mediocrity lessen our blow. Live, love life and be true to our heart’s desire. It just may be what our soul wishes to express. We are all enriched by the songs of others. Add our note to the chorus of life.

Live long and prosper.

Passion

What is passion? Successful people have it, so do the Italians. Why do I struggle to obtain and use this energetic force? Well I have just found out that the form we live in is pre-programmed to maintain a level of passion, success, joy. It uses the polar opposites to maintain that level, that is why when things get good, or is about to get good, the form sets out to sabotage it.

I now call on Soul Will and the forces that control my form to raise this level do that success, joy, love and passion be allowed to flow with freedom. I have been put on this earth to live life, not to suffer in a mediocre existence. Let success flow, let the joy of love and passion be the new bench mark. Let life flow freely so that I may provide for my own form and that of Homestead. Let passion flow, let joy fill my heart with abundance. Let the Soul Will be my guide to living. Let me live in a harmless way, where I can intuit my way and live my life with joy and leave only footsteps in my wake, and let me share this passion for life with my soul partner.

Homestead

Home is where the heart is. This is a phrase I have heard all my life, but what makes a house into a home I wonder, and furthermore can one actually set out to create a home? Well within this passage I invoke both my vision of home and the intent to build or obtain it.

What follows is my vision of home, well rather what the house contains and what materials construct it, for this is only the house and garden. The home is where the heart is, subjecting that any house can be a home if the heart resides within it and that same heart yearns for it when time, location or work must separate the two.

So let me vision for you my desired construct of the house and gardens.

Picture if you will a block of land by the sea, preferably a sheltered bay where the sea laps the shore in gentle melodic tones. Along the shore front stand great trees of pine and pohutukawa amidst soft grass and the scents, within a garden of pleasure where flowers abound in many colours and shapes with butterflies and bees. Here relaxation is infused with contemplation. Here structure is abandoned in favour of stimulation and beauty. Form is favoured over function.

There are no boundaries of constructed format. This is a place where plants, insects, birds, and human cohabitate and collaborate as they would have it. The garden contains grand Oak and Willow together with fruit trees of apple and nectarine and vines of grape and passion fruit, bushes of mandarin. These are mixed with beds containing vegetables and herbs for cooking or just good health, some for drinking and some simply because of the delicious scents like jasmine. Nearby are some bee hives. This is a garden of abundance and pleasure where one can work intuitively and walk in with an empty basket and walk out enriched by beauty and with the evening meal. This is a vision where the evening meal is an enjoyable process from the growing to gathering, preparation, cooking and eating.

In harmony with the environment, the house stands nestled within the grounds. Here space is generous. Beauty and texture stand side by side amid a craftsman’s pride. The house welcomes its guests with a loving personality. Each corner opens up a new possibility and multiple levels of enjoyment where one can seek company or solitude. Rooms and spaces each have their own purpose. Here love and the passion for life are enhanced with music, books, art, pottery and furniture that weave a rich tapestry of form and function.

Within the grounds will be found small cottages of similar architecture where guests could stay for a while to regenerate and replenish the life force that sustains them.

Beyond the house and gardens is where nature presents its raw natural beauty. Here grand trees stand and birds sing. Simply put this is nature’s garden, where the wheel of life turns without the hand of man, where the only sound are the birds singing and the wind rustling through the leaves. With luck and good fortune there is a small stream and waterfall to complete the picture.

All these things I desire to have and share with all who come to the door, be they passing through or staying for a while to regenerate. Where each person is enriched by the space, and where the space itself can heal and repair the body, mind and soul, because we play our part with all the lives, large and small, from plants the house itself, playing their part in a cooperative community that is living for one purpose, for the love life itself.

The wheel of life

As another birthday rolls around on the wheel of life, I look once more at my life and its direction. Life, that word has new meaning now; it now has purpose and meaning. Life is always putting little challenges in front of me, though I guess it is the same for all. Looking at the past, through childhood and adult years, serves no purpose in itself, it does not change anything nor can looking at the past resolve anything. The best I can do is look where I am and gauge my present course. Asking, is it right for me? Am I doing the best I can with what I have?

These are fine questions to ask but they themselves do little to resolve the present moment. Indeed the present moment is all I have. I have recently been informed that life is guided. We each have our own guide who is constantly at our side, in good times and especially in bad. Not only do they guide me though life but they guide me to others and others to me. Each moment of life is for the purpose of growth and for the resolution of past and present issues.

In my work there have been times of creativity and tremendous enjoyment and also times where that creativity is squashed. Why I ask myself, as at the moment the latter is the case. I have a project on at work that fires my passion, but those in charge wish to run the project by the book with all the trappings of the full SDLC process. That is fine, but when it crushes the creative process I have a problem with it.

This all may sound like a grizzle and truth be told it is. Why? Why would my guide present this situation for me? Well it seems that it arises through my free will and of those around me, not a guided scenario, yet my guide presents me with advice and guidance on how best to proceed. ‘Nothing is a waste of time’ he tells me, nothing is wasted, all knowledge and experience is used to further the process. There is more to this than I am aware of it would seem.

It turns out that our guides are omnipresent, presenting choices, guiding those choices as well. Some are able to listen and other not so much, but they are always present. One new piece of information that I've learned recently is that my presents is also used to affect others, just as others affect me, I am used to affect others.

Today I had lunch with a family member that did not end well. But on checking in latter it was for the best. Sometimes we have to go through a difficult time or event to learn or resolve something. It is difficult to stand back and let life unfold sometimes, especially hard when you see someone you love presenting pain. I know now that this pain is not mine or mine to resolve. When it comes to the duty of care for life, then yes we must intervene and sustain life, but when it comes to pain of the emotional kind, we often have to stand back and let events play out. This is true when others present joy, we do not step in to stop it, we encourage it and let it unfold. Pain or sorrow are no different, they are just other forms of expressing emotion from which we can grow.

It is difficult to do when it is someone you love, but when it is happening to me it feels personal, when it is my turn to walk through the mud then it becomes very difficult to watch others stand back but stand back they must so that I can learn to crawl out of the mud myself. Growth can often be a painful process what’s more the process of growth never stops, I am nearly 60 and I’m still growing.

All life is an opportunity for growth and we must grow for that is the purpose of life. It is called ‘The wheel of life’ and it is relentlessly turning.

It’s not personal

Life has a funny way of throwing stuff in our way, don’t you think, just when I think I've got it sorted out, things change and it starts all over again. One phrase that I have heard over and over in the past months is ‘It is not personal’. What does it actually mean? It may help a little if I put context around it. It is more than just the interplay between people, it is about how we feel, how we react to circumstances even down to having a lousy day. Consider this quote from Shakespeare.

 All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages.

William Shakespeare

This quote has merit in its own right, and I’m certainly not going to debate or critique it here, but it does allude to the idea that we play a part in life, and others play parts in our own lives. I now think that there is more to this phrase than just the interplay between people in one life time. I have recently been exposed to the esoteric world and have been reading lots of material about the physical form and its identity and the soul or higher mind, and what happens to the personality when the higher mind wakes up. In doing so there is the awareness of the higher mind and being part of a soul group. This concept is difficult enough in its own right, without adding the idea that I am an expression of that group, part of it, in form to experience and learn; to achieve what I was put here for. That is a huge subject, and I am not qualified to expand on it, yet. What has come out of this is that the group works through me; they are constantly guiding me, teaching me. To this end, having a bad day is not personal; it is just part of the plan, guidance if you will. I have struggled to understand this, to put it in context, so that I can hold and understand it.

I think in terms of pictures and in analogies that bring a complex concept down to basic forms. My father used this method to teach mathematics, by taking a complex problem, breaking it down to parts of simple maths so that I could understand it and prove that my workings were correct.

Now back to the idea that it is not personal, here is a hypothesis that we are mealy characters in a play that has been playing for an eternity. Consider for a moment a company of actors, writers, directors, stage managers, prop managers, wardrobe managers, and all the other people that contribute to a play or film. Now the only people visible in this play are the characters on stage and the props that support them. Here is the important part, as soon as the actor enters the stage he/she is consumed by the character and forgets that they are an actor. The character assumes the identity, completely. The directors and stage managers cannot directly influence the character; all they can do is create circumstances by changing props etc.

Me, my personality, my identity is no more real than a character in a fictional book, an idea, a persona put into the play to achieve something. There is neither script nor knowledge of anything outside of the character we play. When my time is up, the character will exit the stage and then realise that it is all an illusion.

As it happens I have recently realised that I am an actor playing a part, but the persona will not let go completely, nor should it, after all it was created for a purpose, all things are important. Time and place are part of the story, as are the skills that I have, and everything that surrounds me, it has all been created by the directors and writers (the group) so that we may express, play our part. It is also plausible that a persona was created to work out some issue or karmic debt incurred by previous personas.

The key to life is not only to live a good life, but to reach a point where the persona can work with the actor, who can hear the director’s guidance, and then become a useful member of the group.

When my part is played out, the writers and director will create another character to play, another personality, another life. If ‘I’ am an actor, then the personality is the persona, or just the part I’m playing now. The persona or character is not important; it is created so the group can grow, so the group as a whole can move on, so the play can evolve.

My life journey is guided by a group of writers and stage directors, changing the story conditions to achieve the desired outcome. As soon as the character, can get out of the way and allow the actor to listen to direction, the better. It means that the story has a chance to play itself out and move on to the next act.

All the off stage members cannot directly force a character, all they can do is change conditions, bring things to our attention. However when one of the characters realises that he is an actor on stage, and looks up to see the lights, then the actor can work with the persona to be a more useful member of the group.

The bottom line is that it is not personal; the persona is just a work of fiction, a persona added to the story to affect a change, to grow the story. The first and most important thing we can do as individuals is to look up and see the light, recognise the stage and realise that we are characters in a play. From that point on, with awareness of the directors we can be useful members.